Mom's Club

When Jake and I decided we wanted to have a baby- I truly wanted a baby right away! I couldn't wait for a pregnancy test to have 2 lines or say "pregnant". The anticipation of it all was so fun yet so annoying all at the same time. That one random day that I thought "hmm- I think I will pee on a stick this morning" quickly became one of the best days of my life when 2 faint lines appeared. I couldn't stop smiling all day! I was going to be a mom!

9 months later my baby girl arrived and I remember feeling every emotion of happiness that could ever exist. I finally felt like I had a greater understanding of what our Heavenly Father's love for us is like. What a blessing that Jake and I were given to raise this little daughter of God! I felt so blessed, yet I also felt the weight of the world on my shoulders. I don't think that "weight" will ever go away. I am constantly reminded of this world we live in and the not so fun things that are happening around us. Most days I feel overwhelmed with these thoughts that keep me up at night or wake me in the middle of the night. I realize Brighton's spirit was blessed to be born at this time and knowing that does bring me a lot of comfort.

It is amazing what a day is like with a baby! It is the best day and the worst day. It is the best day when your child learns something new and they start clapping for themselves. It is the worst day when you realize another day has passed. Every night before I go to sleep I silently go to check on my sweet baby girl that is sleeping peacefully. I miss her in those moments.

It is safe to say that I am like a lot of mom's, I want the very best for my little girl. I recently started thinking about going back to school. Why not? Maybe becoming a mom has made me feel really ambitious or crazy. I guess it all depends who you're asking. My to-do/goals list continues to grow and even be put off sometimes! However, today I choose cuddles because I am an emotional mom that thinks cuddles from a little are just the best!

Joining this mom's club is the best decision I have ever made! It truly is the most rewarding job. The benefits are amazing and worth the sleepless nights and the mommy body! Being a parent changes everything but in the grand scheme of everything it makes life better! I love my husband more for the way he cares for our baby. I love that he is the patriarch of our family and that he does a darn good job at it! I am grateful for all that we have. I am blessed for the opportunity that I had to carry my baby and feel her kicks. I am not always the most positive person when it comes to pregnancy. In fact if it were up to me, I really would be done having children. It was the hardest 9 months of my life- I will not deny that it was not worth it though. I brought life into this world! How amaze is that?!?

Needless to say, Brighton- I am so grateful to be your momma, mommy, mom!